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tulus...comel...suka...

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tulus...comel...suka...

well well well

Well I don’t know if my feelings right, but I think I would like to just let the life bring me afterwards. To see from this angle, I’ve got through so many circumstances. The thing is, I’m 23 y o now, and I also have been thinking a lot lately. I’ve born in 1989 and have been raised in a small house just about 20 minutes from the nearest town. I moved to my early boarding school, and then moved to another school. And I’m out from there only in 2006, and then moved again to another school till I got 19 y o. then 4 years in Selangor continuing my studies in my area. So, now I’m in the last year of my studies. And from all of the process moving from school to universities is a learning process for me. I have a lot of friends. I am a kind of person that really needs the attention of being loved, or being a part of some parties. In fact, I think it is a normal process and needs in life. I am just a person who wants to live my life and that’s all. I think my English sucks, so how could I teach children English in school. I don’t prepare for any of this. I’ve a few important persons in my life, my whole big family, my best friends, a girlfriend, and I’d love to make some new friends. I’m not doing any better in my academic, I’m ashamed to still asking money from my parents, my love life’s unstable, and most important thing is I just don’t know what to predict of my own life. All I had is just me. Every person has the breaking point of themselves sometimes. They are all tired to face this life every day. When the problems come, we will just have to face it. I want to be a little kid with no problems at all. They don’t have to even think about any of it. I’m getting older; sooner or later I know I would be dead as everyone does. So for now I think, I just want to calm down a bit cause you can’t tell where heaven stops and the earth began.Life is unpredictable, sometimes its awesome, and then it sucks.

buat seseorang

if there any possible way for you to read this i'll be thankful..mis thas i am a literature boy..n i am from arts classes.. u'r from the higher class students n want to cont overseas.. n of cos u r a science students..we're totally fucking different.. there's no way i could understand ur languag e or ur signals..or symbols that makes me understand u...i do take care all of that..i'm trying to undertand ur behaviour from day to day.. at once i think..that u r the perfect one for me..but i think its not now.. coz when it comes to certain point..u'r just flip urself just like that..love is a commitment..love is life..i also must admit.. i dont really know what the fuck is wrong with myself..because i can't read u.. one day u'r such a beauty fairy with beautiful smiles..and the next day, u r just not u... definitely, i want u to realize that i am really put efforts to this matter.. it is not a big deal if u ask me now...cause passed is passed..be an understandable person..tolerate person..emphatic person...seize the day and live a happy life.. bear with life...

time passed away

hai...rasenye dah lame sangat aku x maenulis.. kali ni aku nak crita pasal random...ego manusia ni tinggi..termasuk juga aku yang juga punya ego tersendiri.. aku anak keenam dari adik beradik..dan aku yang paling akhir..aku cume kenal abg sulong aku pada umur 18 tahun..i mean really knowing him as a brother... nak katekan ego aku tinggi sgt pon tidak la jugak...tpi ade sesetengah bnde yang buat aku trus panas..1.ade org main kepala aku..2. mak bapak jgn dibabitkan.. 3.ade org yg mncabar egoku..tapi walau mcm mane pon..aku tetap mudah mengalah dan meminta maaf seandainye aku buat silap...aku jenis yang lembut hati jgkla... dari segi panas baran 2 ...ade la sikit2...sebab background fmily aku ni mostly semuanye garang...turun genetik dari bapak aku...tapi aku bersyukur sebab bapak aku garang..sebab die hari ni aku ade di sini... didikan lama dari org lame...i accept that now.. dari zaman sekolah menengah sampai sekarang..aku banyak masalah dengan partner aku.. especially girls lah...nak dijadikan cerita..aku ni antara org yg famous lah in school dulu..i have reputation..i have potential..n im very simple person...aku ade ramai ex-gf yang dlunye aku berbangge nak crite kt org..sebb aku hebat boleh tackle pempuan just like that..in a blink eyes..tapi hari nih..aku xtahu mane hala tuju aku...aku hilang segalanya...aku hilang punca..semuanya relate kepade aku semula... sekarang aku dah sedar...jadi playboy..pasang scandal byk2 bukan lagi satu kegembiraan buat aku.. aku dah mula melangkah..menjejakkan kaki ke alam dewasa..aku bersedia untuk ape saje kemungkinan...i want to see the real world outside there..i want to travel n i love travel so much..to anywhere in the world..i remember one of the best movies i ever watched was Forrest Gump 1994..it is so inspirational,that he lives his life with full of colors and destiny..life of a human can be like a feathers which can fly anywhere or elsewhere, following the breezes of winds..or we all have a destiny that we have to achieve in our life...n mybe i can understand now where lives bringing me..mybe i will keep going to my destiny or i'll just let the winds blow me anywhere...n dying is a part of life that u must bear with..we know one day we r going to die..just bring it on life!! i'll do wht i should do..

serabut baii

dilema yang x ada penghujungnye.. rase mcm dah langkah kanan..tapi rupenye..tersekat langkah.. entahlah..gua dah mcm xde mase..kesuntukan mase nak mencari.. gua serius..tapi mcm x diambil serius.. kekurangan..sebut pasal kekurangan tu ... kekurangan sane sini tu memg ade.. tapi boleh tops up from time to time.. keras kepale..? hm..gua jadi penat dan x larat nak melayan tu semue.. buat mase ni..biarlah gua biarkan saja..pendamkan saja.. simpankan saja perit pedih tu..

seorang pemerhati

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dan ya...
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buka pemikiran kamu..

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aku minta maaf....tpi itulah aku..

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ikhlas..