must face

problem tht never ends like a river,,..
plus examination week which is tiring all day..
im trying to scan on you in another perspective..
compulsory things..sad and agony...
true story!

ok

Sometimes, when I’m thinking alone,. Deep in the dark of the night..i am the most unfortunate person in this world,people might be saying that I am lucky enough..but in fact..i am nothing..nothing in this life will make me someone.because I am nobody..i am nobody..i don’t have anything..but I should be thankful to God because I am still perfectly in good condition..back to a few days ago..i’ve seen this video in youtube where in Korea,this homeless boy came in to one of the Korean competition..the Korean Got Talent if I am not mistaken..this homeless boy.lived alone since he was 5..to survive in that particular condition..5 years old..i never even remember a thing back there when I am 5. His face was so calm and relaxing,the way he sing the song was so touching, nearly I dropped my tears..he sleep in the public toilet..and sometimes stairs around the nation…being sold to somewhere he don’t even know..the moment he stands there..give me a thought that,,he is really a strong guy..can you ever imagine,been livng alone like that for at least 10 years..it is a very inspirational video..he got the crowd attention there.,he said that he love to sing because it is the only thing that can make he felt release,relieve, and the only way to make things happy in his life. Now..i have my parents, siblings, girlfriend…friends..they will always be there for me and still I am not satisfied enough to face this reality of life. I’ve committed in so much sin..OMG please hear my heart..deep there in my heart..i am Yours.. you will always have the power to take everything from me. Just keep reminding myself to be more thankful..because thankful can make life so meaningful..

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adakah aku hanya seorang pacikk...? tertanye2 diri sendiri..
ataupun seorang lover...jawapan bukan pada aku.....

buzz buzz

dah lame sgt aku x menulis di sini..mungkin sebb puas x thu nk tulis ape or memg aku x berminat lagi untuk blogging ni...
tthere were many things to share..from the madness of theater until the best of cure medicine from tok...
hari deepavali..aku pulang ke rumah lewat kerana ada kerja...padahal saje je mls blik awal...namun hari aku di rumah seperti biasa bosan dgn perkare2 yang melalaikan...kemudian balik ke kolej dgn kerja yang menimbun2 untuk dibuat..kemudian disebabkan aku x balik raye haji taun lepas aku balikla taun nie..tpi hari tu x seindah biasa bile aku terlibat dgn satu accident yang menyebabkan kawan2 risau..dan juga telah menyebabkan laptop compaq aku arwah..moto legend aku koma...tapi mujur da sihat lepas seminggu,,..aku nie mujur la hidup lagi atas dunie ni..memang bukan ajal aku lagi...alhamdulillah aku masih disini...aku terlantar kat rumah selama 3 hari x berjalan..masuk hari keempat baru larat berjalan...damn.;perit gile kaki gua...
bila da balik kolej..aku menumpang laa kawan2 yg ade kenderaan..aku da xde moto..laptop plak xde..bapak aku bagi 2k cash money suruh beli laptop..dan ini hasilnye..asus berpowerkan 4 processer..dan juge speaker baru untuk dgr lagu sampai puas..hidup aku mcm bese..terima kasih kepade kawan2 aku yg melawat aku sampai ke rumah,..ajja,zarif,syaira...kepade azami yg dtg dari jauh..yg lain2 terima kasih jugk sbb risaukan aku...syg jgk korg kt aku ni...keh3..kepade awk special thnks for u..ngee...lalu akan ku teruskan hidup ini..menghabiskan sesi sem 5 dan menghadapi sem 6 plak nnti...

such a bad day

actually it is not a day but a whole week..busy with assignment,exams..college program and i am so damn tired.
but first of all,i want to appologize to u syg
i want to get along with u,spend time together sometimes..but this time also i cant manage my time well..
despite the tiredness despite the loneliness..we need to get through these things,i know u're also some kind of busy lately..i've tried to understand..
u dont say that im not loving u..i do love u..i do..we just need to talk sometime.. i hope that u could stay calm ok..
i am sorry if i had mad at u..it wasnt on purpose,this week was full of tense, but somehow i need to get through,. and please,i dont want to have a fight with u..when i say i love u then i mean it..t.a soryy...:(

dad

dad this is for u...
suddenly this things came out from my delicate brain..
u have raised me up with full colors in my life..so thanks for evrythings dad..
this reminded me of one day..when i was a kid..i never want to hear u..
i keep following my frens till dawn..when im back u beat me up so hard..belt..sandals..everything was just like flying towards me..and im really in a big pain that day...n so im so sad,n something came out from my think..i think tht u're not even love me...i am so sorry for even think about it dad..that night i still remember it till now..u rub some minyak afiat over my body..u massage my feet..i cant sleep that nite because it is so painful...n i heard everything dad...thank you so much because loving me with all ur heart...n that time also my tears just come out...it cant stop flowing tht time..now i am here at university also because of u..now i had my own life,i willlearn to live on my own and also with ur helps...and this is the memory of mine that i should never forget about.

petak petak kehidupan..

I would rather live my life with you as a friend than live my life without you in it at all! - PS ilove u-
okey..ni permulaan untuk tulisan aku kali ni..huhu
masuk 6 oktober 2011, aku seperti biasa..mcm ni,bgun pagi kemas bilik jap
rumet aku tah kemane..hilang cm bese..gi dating dgn mek die kot...
tpi bukan 2 yg aku nk crite..aku nk crite sal hidup aku la seminggu ni..penatla sial..
pagi sampai ptg kelas..ptg main rugby..mlm esaimen,,non stop aw,,perghh..mcm biase tiap2 hari..pedih jgk la gua ase...
ok then kite gi kepade ayat atas ni..ayat ats ni spesel tau..walaupun si die cik hati gua nie jnis segan2 ckit..tpi xpe,,gua ase gua da boleh phm die..okey la kan...hehe..
smlm bile tgk je muke die..gua hepy..hepy...ase cm nk sengeh memanjang aok tau...
kpd aok.: keh syg ngat ke aok tau..ily..
ok dahh....cite sal mak n bapak gua kt kmpung lak...bru2 nie tepon mak..mak gua cm besela...tnye,ada apahal tepon mak nie,..punye la jarang tepon.,ape jenis ank pon tak tau la aku nie..hehe...pas2 aku pon ckpla...saje je nk tepon mak...rindu la..
haha..mak aku pon layan la aku cm bese..borak2..pas2 tnye sal bapak aku..sihat je die..alhamdulillah..cume ade masalah ckit..lembu pulak hilang 2 ekor..ntah kemane dorg nie merayap..si jepah dgn samat...(name lembu) merayau je keje...sian bpak aku kene carik puas2...heh,memg nk kne dorg ni...
erm..okeyla setakat 2 dlu...bye2..